Lately Thoughts.

So things have been going great, haven’t bought any new baby items which is good since I don’t have a lot of room for things.  I have my first appointment in Kelowna January 23rd, I’m hoping once I have that appointment my cycle day 1 starts a couple days later (if it stays on track) then I can have my sample shipped (I hope it wouldn’t take more then a week) Then have a try that cycle!  I’m ready to try again but have been focusing on my weight loss which will for sure help in the long run!!

I’ve lost 13 pounds and 10 inches so far so I’m happy, I want to lose another 29 pounds by then so when I gain weight with pregnancy I will feel better about it.  If the next IUI doesn’t work I will pick another donor and get 2 samples and try 2 more times.

I have also been looking at places, around here houses are a bit out of my budget, at least decent ones.  So I’ve been looking at condos (they are building a new one in Vernon) that would be in my price range, or I could go for a tiny house and get a piece of land and split it with my brother.  We will see though as I don’t need a place right now since my bosses are letting me live rent free in their houses and will continue to let me live there for however long I need.  When I go home in December I will list my house for sale, I feel like I will want my own place just before I have the baby, just for my own privacy and so I won’t feel like I’m intruding in their space.

For the first 3 months of the babies life I will go back home and stay with my parents though just to be around family and have some help.  Then I will go back and start working again.

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Wow.

I am moving to BC.

wow wow wow

I am shaking, I don’t know what to think.  The nanny family text me yesterday asking when I was wanting to go.  I thought they just didn’t need me anymore, it’s been a couple weeks since I have heard from them.  I asked what they were thinking for wage since that would have been my deciding factor.  Turns out they offered me 3 grand a month, that’s amazing and an opportunity I cannot pass up.  I of course have a few other questions, would my wage change when the kids are back in school, would I be guaranteed a years worth of work at least.  She must have got busy when the kids got home because she hadn’t answered me till today at lunch and just said she is going to call me once she discusses it all with the dad.  She told me she could use me anytime after June 4th, I told her I could come out the end of June since I have family grads to go to, grooming and eyelash extension appointments to finish, not to mention my little niece Blakely turns 1 on the 27th and I don’t want to miss that.  I also told her I had decided to do my first IUI at the end of June which will work out perfect (I think) I get it done then a couple days later hop on a plane or drive to BC.  This is crazy I don’t know what to do my mind is just reeling with everything.  Like this is an ideal opportunity for me and my future child.  I’ve been looking at prenatal care in Vernon, looking at activities, shopping, ect in the area.

My mom has already told the kids at the school, they are disappointed I won’t be back.  I said I would visit for sure when I could.  I don’t feel it’s official yet though, I think I will need a date picked before I do.  I love that the family is so supportive with my decision and still wants me to nanny for them.  It will be hard to be away from my family while I’m pregnant and when baby is a few months old (I would take 3-4 months mat-leave) but I am loving that I will be able to take baby with me to work and have some “siblings” to love all over them.

Since the family will fly me back once a month I should be able to get half a day or a full day of grooming in to keep some clients and make a little bit of extra cash.  I am hoping my parents or brother “rent” my house so that payment would be covered and I can still keep my house.  I would still have a place to live and make my own when baby is here.  I would be back to work for the summer which will be filled with lake days, splash parks, hiking, farmers markets.  It will be very eventful for sure.  I would move back eventually and I love my house and don’t want to give it up.

My days are going to be packed during the summer.  If I end up pregnant I’ve been pinning tips on hiking while pregnant as well as traveling.  I have figured I’d have to drive back a month before my due date to get ready and just in case I go into labor early and since I wouldn’t be able to fly I’d have to drive.  Then I would rest up and nest at home.  I would possibly even get my mom to fly out and drive back with me to make it easier.  I think I’m so on edge with it all because I’m not 100% on what is happening, I like plans.

On Saturday I go to pick up my stroller!!!  My friend is coming with me and she’ll possibly bring my niece if her grandma isn’t feeling well enough yet.  We will get some shopping done, I am going to get some more baby items if I find something that will be useful and I really like.

Wishing.

My Florida trip was amazing, I had so much fun we did the color run and I actually ran a good chunk of it then I got held behind when the one little girl got tired and wanted to walk.  It was fine though we had a good stroll through the city and it was fun crossing the finish line with her.  That night we went to eat at Flip Flops and we all danced and it was a lot of fun!!  The rest of the trip we hung out, walked down the beach to eat and swim, swam in the ocean.  The 3 older kids had school still so while they went there we shopped a bit, I sat in the sun for a while and burned of course, haha.  After I burned I decided to hang out inside and on my balcony that was shaded.


On Sunday, we decided to go out for Sushi and it was delicious!  They told me they are planning to move to BC! and asked if I would be interested in nannying for them again.  They would fly me back home once a month to visit family, they have 1 house right now and are in the process of buying 2 more and said I would live in 1 of them.  I was floored they asked me and said I would totally consider it!  It’s a huge decision and I hadn’t told them my baby plans yet.  I was so nervous to tell them about my plans but even moving to BC wouldn’t change it.  I had kind of told the 2 older boys about it so they said something to their parents so I knew I had to tell them right away.  So I did and they took it very well and are super happy for me, the dad even said that it’s a very respectable way for me to go ahead with this and they asked me so many questions.

Last minute they flew us all to BC, I was suppose to stay at their house with the 5 kids while they drove to North Dakota to pack up the lake house and move everything back to BC, but it turned into us all driving across country.  It was very eventful and a long drive but I enjoyed spending the time with them.  I drove with the mom and we sort of discussed me nannying, they hadn’t really had a chance to talk it over except that I would be able to be put on one of their business’ payroll in order to get mat leave.  The only downfall is that they can really only offer me 4ish hours a day during school months, I don’t think I can move all the way to BC while still having my new house, a new baby and expenses all on 4 hours a day.  Getting a second job wouldn’t make sense since I’d have to find daycare for the baby for 4 or 5 hours a day.  I wish they could offer me way more because I would love to nanny for them again, but I don’t think I would be able to financially.


Tomorrow it sounds like the school is having the higher ups out to sign contracts with us, and it sounds like they will be signing me for the next year which would be awesome financially/baby wise.  I told the family about it and would need more details before I sign, but I don’t think they can offer me more so I think I’m going to have to turn them down which is disappointing.  The kids REALLY want me to be their nanny again.  I am going to offer nannying for the summer, though, it would be tons of fun since the kids will be out of school and there will be lots for us to do.  Then I’ll come back to Saskatchewan and do my IUI.  Just because I can’t nanny for them doesn’t mean they’ll be out of my life, I still plan to visit whenever I get the chance, even with a baby.  I want this awesome family in mine and my child’s life.

When we got back home on Saturday I drove to the lake and was planning to drive to the states to help them pack but I had a pretty brutal cold and ended up going back home and I slept for 12 hours!  I really wanted to go help since they’ve done so much for me and not to mention she has tons of baby items she was going to let me go through!  I’m probably going to text her this afternoon and see what is up.

 

April 7, 2016

3 Months 13 Days until my first IUI cycle. 3 Months 13 Days until I am actively trying. These past few months have gone by relatively fast. I recently had a friend ask me repeatedly if I Was Sure. She had been drinking when I told her and she had a child at the age of 18 so she was worried. She is still super excited for me though. She also said that she better be apart of the child’s life, which she would be. I had to keep repeating that I’m not making this decision quickly that I have been planning this for a few years now but am just going forward with it.

The family I nannied for asked me to go to Florida April 22-29, I want to go but they will only pay for my flights and if we end up going to Disney or Key West that’ll be out of my price range since the dollar is so bad, an I’m sort of out of a job for May. We would do the color run on the 23rd, then I wonder if they would pull the kids out of school. I miss them terribly, I had planned on telling them my plans in person while I was there. I need to find out if the school still needs me during that week, if not I’ll go, if they do I may need to stay to make money. I know for a weekend in the summer i want them to come stay at my house.

Oh! My comotomo bottles came yesterday! I love them, my plan is to breastfeed and pump but if I can’t then obviously I would formula feed. Either way I would use the bottles. I want to get 2 more 8oz ones then I should be set. I also love the option of being able to buy handles for them for when the baby can hold onto things. My next purchase will be a Paperlust Studio “Hello Mama” Pregnancy Journal. I want to keep track of my whole pregnancy in a beautiful way that I can look back on and something my child can keep. I will still be getting a special made Mushybook to keep track of when the baby is here and growing.

  
Starting Monday I am starting Keto again, I got my best results following that and I have 3 months to stick with it so I’ll put a meal plan together and prep on Sunday. I will also start LiveFit from Phase 1 again and I should see some decent results and should feel pretty great. My mom had said when she was pregnant with me she gained over 50 pounds and I don’t want to do that of coarse.

Nothing Really New

Went for a second interview at the school with the guy who manages ALL the schools last week.  I believe it went good and I am hoping to hear back from them soon.  In the interview though he had said part time instead of casual so it’s got me really curious if he had said it on accident or if that is the position they will offer me.  I am also going to put a “bid” in to do the cleaning there as well as it would be an extra grand a month.  I may even look into getting a roommate for a few months as that would save me $500 a month.  The thing is I like having my own space and not sharing it with random people.  It’s not something I need to rush into though so that is good.  At my current job things are slow and my boss said they’ll have to let me go for April/May but after that if I am at the school still I am welcome to come to the office part time as well so that’s nice.

For fitness I finished month 2 and lost an additional 4.5 inches so a total of 15.5 inches.  Hadn’t lost any weight that month but gained muscle, I am noticing a big difference in the definition of my arms.  At the end of this month I will order 4 comotomo baby bottles.  I am excited for those haha then when I complete Round 2 Phase 1 I will order my single mom by choice Mushy Book which I am excited for.

I have countdowns on my phone and I have 1 for the beginning of my IUI cycle (July) and 1 for the actual IUI (August) of coarse that one will vary in days but I am just going off of what my Kindari app says for now.

Fit Week 7

Can’t believe I will be starting week 7 on Monday!  Feels great.  I have been sticking with the plan, haven’t missed a workout but I’ve only lost 1 pound since the start of Phase 2, 2 weeks ago which is sort of disappointing.  It hasn’t discouraged me though because I know I am living a healthy lifestyle.  Except on Sunday (V-Day) I’m having my cheat meal of the month and having Chinese food, I have been craving it for a while so I figured that’ll be a good day.  My bestie might come down to and we’ll both have it and some wine.

I believe when I am pregnant I’ll stick with the Jamie Eason eating plan (adding 300 cals extra of coarse) because it’s so easy to stick with, healthy and I hopefully won’t gain any excess weight then necessary.  I’ll work out 3-5 days a week but make sure I take rest days.  I won’t want to lose my muscle I’m gaining.  Then post-pregnancy I’d do the Eason program suitable for that.

I have found a great place in Winnipeg that does lip injections for a reasonable price.  Since I just want my top lip (need to even them out) I can get .5 CC’s for $250.00 I figured I’d try it out and if I need more in a couple months I’ll do it.  I want to go at the end of March since I’ll be done Round 1.  I’d LOVE to have it done before Feb 27th since we are doing a girls night out but I have no free weekends before then.  So I guess I’ll go out with my thin lip haha.  I’ve been researching injections, and have been starring at my lip, like I have a decent smile but when my face is resting it’s noticeable, and it’s super noticeable when I have any lipstick on, just because my bottom lip is so big.  I would love to have just an even pouty mouth.  Also my top lip doesn’t stick out as much as my bottom so my side profile to me looks a little funny, and I always seem to burn the inside of my bottom lip in the sun haha so it would be good to have some “shade” LOL

 

So Far

162 days left till my first IUI cycle!  It’s so far away, I just wish I could do it this next cycle but no chance of that happening.

I had a message from the family I used to nanny for, they want me to go down to Florida to visit them in April!  Of coarse I will go I miss all of them so much, and it would be the last time I travel to see them without a baby.  They first asked me to go in March for the color run but then they remembered they are gone for spring break to their BC cabin.  It wouldn’t have worked for me than as my bosses are away on holidays and I can’t take time off then.  So I’m happy they said April instead.  I get along so well with the parents I’ll tell them my plans for August while I’m down there.  It works out well to since I’ll be done round 1 of LiveFit and should be feeling and looking awesome.  Then I’ll start round 2 when I get back so I’ll be even better for a baby.

Sunday I ordered 2 pacifier clips from etsy, they are adorable and I’ll pictures up when they get here, and while I was at Walmart on Monday I picked up 2 pacifiers.  That was my phase 1 goal reward.  I’ve added cardio now so I do weights in the morning then cardion (rowing machine) after work before I groom dogs.  I’m exhausted and I’ve only done 4 days.  My energy should pick up once I get used to waking up a bit earlier then normal.

Tonight I am to go to a friends Thirty-One party, it’s organizational totes/items.  I don’t have a need for them and don’t have the money for them either so I feel bad.  She is also adding younique makeup to the party, which I don’t wear.  I feel like I have to go though.  I’ll just get the books, my mom says she needs a travel jewelry bag so maybe they’ll have that.  I also noticed younqiue has an awesome gold eyeliner I may have to get.

Tomorrow is a half day of work for me so I will get up do my weights go to work, get groceries and mail get home do cardio, shower then if I have time I will have a nap.  I’m going to the hockey game in town tomorrow night with a friend so that should be fun.  I’m also staying at her house Saturday night and having a girls night.

As for jobs the school received my resume and Ellie talked to my mom a little bit about it.  She said that she will take the proposition of adding a part time secretary / part time EA to the mix.  They need to make sure it’s in their budget.  I’m hoping it is, so then I can for sure 100% try in August for a baby.  No response from the coop either so not sure if I will at all.  Not really any jobs around here at all which really sucks since I’m depending on it.

IKEA 

  
It only took me 5 hours but I finally got the dresser/change table all put together by myself.  It wasn’t too difficult just lots of pieces, I surprised myself.  I do need to get a little tool set though to keep in my house, there have been numerous times I’ve needed a hammer and ended up using a wrench instead hahah.  Luckily my dad left his power drill at my house so it made the set up a bit easier.  

I am in absolute LOVE with the dresser/change table though, I feel it will go along with my woodland theme so well.  Along with the copper knobs I got at Target they pair very well together.  I can already picture how I will set everything up when the time comes.  I think for the glider chair I have I will either just sand and stain it a natural wood color or paint it white.  The cushions I’m thinking something navy would look nice and pull the color of the dresser as well.  Maybe white with navy polka dots!  

I want to take a night and go threw all my baby items since the dresser took so long and I meal prepped the same day I didn’t feel like doing it.  

Ahh! 

  
 I HAD to, there was no way I could pass this adorable bandana bib I found on etsy!  So I ordered it yesterday morning, more items for the hope chest.  I bought it from thebirdandelephant from etsy, she has some great adorable items at a decent price considering they are hand made!  She had previously a “feather” chew ring/crinkle toy for babies and I wish it was still available because I would have bought it as well.  

I’m ending week 3 of my lifestyle change, been doing great had 1 cheat meal on Saturday at Joe Beevers (free willy sandwich and poutine 👌) and have been sticking to the nutrient plan to a tee since then.  My cycle is going to start today or tomorrow so I don’t want to weigh myself, I’m going to try and hold out till the end of week 4 before I start phase 2.

I’m hoping I can at least get close to losing 15 pounds (that was my goal for the first month) I have been trying hard either way and will purchase my phase 1 reward which is a pack of suckies I plan to use and some suckie holders from esty.  

Also!!! Someone I follow on Instagram, another future single mom by choice told me that Mushybooks (baby books from BC) (that I have been drooling over since I found them months ago) will make a special book for single moms if you request it!! She ordered hers a little while ago (since they are put together by hand and have to have special pages made it takes a bit longer) and it’s the same “The Wild Child” one I want to get so she’s going to send me pictures when she gets hers.   A Mushybook is my Round 2 Phase 1 goal reward! So that should be in April!